For Sharvan.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
across Northrend's bright and shining snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
on Westfall's fields of golden grain.
I am in the morning hush,
of Stranglethorn's jungle, green and lush.
I am in the drums loud and grand,
the thunderous hooves across Nagrand.
I am the stars warmly gleaming,
over Darnassus softly dreaming.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

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I did not know her personally, and I know nothing more about her than what I saw on her armory. Yet knowledge of her passing brings such sadness in me that I have been weeping for the last hour. I don't know when BRK is holding a running of the bulls, but I won't miss it now.

Want To Buy [Monday] ( Real Life )

So it’s Saturday, and I am at work. Pulling a double because the boss is out of town. One of the employees stop in long enough for me to run and get some lunch, and I buy pre cooked barbeque chicken. I didn’t realize it was an entire chicken, I thought it was assorted bits. I feel weird eating food that looks like it did when it was alive. It looks exactly like a plucked, decapitated cooked chicken. So, I am eating it.

I cracked one of my teeth I recently had a root canal on, fractured a portion of the tooth off.. and swallowed it, without knowing. I cannot express how disgusted I am that I swallowed it. I want to go vomit it up. I have no idea why I am having this reaction, but it makes me retch just thinking about it.

The reason I Want to Buy [Monday] is because this Monday I am seeing my dentist for a cleaning, and a crown for three teeth. If that had happened a week ago, as intended, I wouldn’t of just swallowed a piece of my tooth.

Ugh.

Swords And Serpent Shrines ( WoW, Real Life )

(WoW)

It’s official. If I get a Talon of Azshara in Thursday’s SSC raid I am going to go swords for raiding. It’s no longer worth it to be unique. I am tired of being beaten by a fucking autos winging shaman who bought his way into a 2,000 arena team for s3 weapons. Not only will that make it easier to optimize, but it will remove the need for directional DPS which will increase my mobility and effectiveness, as well as my DPS. Since I’ll build combo points a lot faster, it will be less wasted time from slice and slice being down when I do not get my combo point from my finisher, and stronger ruptures.

It also removes the need to stack crit to help with my backstabs. Does crit help? Sure. Is it as important now? No. A lot of sword rogues would rather have 3,000 attack power and 10% crit than 2,000 attack power and 25% crit. I should be able to get the armor penetrating offhand sword from Heroic Magisters, and the Talon of Azshara. This will give me a baseline to start off with, then I would respect and ATTEMPT to secretly use them in raids to see how my DPS does. If it stays the same, I don’t know what I’ll do. If it goes up, I’ll stick with it. I much rather have 5% less fun, and have 40% less frustration.

(Real Life)
I got to head into work today at noon instead of my normal time of ten. Why? Because I have to pull a double tomorrow, eight to seven ( yes I work negative one hour. Idiot. ) so since I am GAINING two hours on Saturday I can afford to lose two hours on Friday.

The Leech is gone, after having a heart attack at the age of 20 in my apartment. We took him to the hospital when he had chest pains and was screaming about a cramp in his leg. How messed up do you have to be to have a heart attack at 20? Seriously? The good news is with him gone I can go back to free balling it if I want to ( and the girlfriend can once more free tit it, which I likes ) and that when I buy food it doesn’t magically vanish with him going “Idunvohwhathappn!” < Swallow > The bad news is, the Leech ( Also known as THE MAID ) is gone that means I need to start to keep my own place clean. I’ve been spoiled with it magically cleaning itself the last few weeks. Ah well.

I woke up this morning to garbage all over my apartment. The dog that I have ( Zelda, 10 year old Cocker Spaniel ) had gotten into the trash and strewn it all over. Her kennel is currently unable to get into because of some boxes, and she tried to hide in it but she couldn’t get into it. I need to remember to move those boxes so she can, it’s supposed to be her safe zone and we’re blocking her out of it.


So.. Mona wants a cat. A kitten to be exact. We have three guinea pigs ( White, brown and white, brown and white ) named Lefty, Squirrel, and Runt. Runt is the daughter of the first two. So that would give us 3 rodents, a cat, and a dog. Which is not that bad, but we need to keep the house presentable to expect to keep that many animals and both she and I are somewhat slackers on that. We need to set a day when we’re both off to work on it. Maybe Tuesday afternoons when she gets out of class.

Today at work should go by rather fast, with the assistant manager leaving early, and me coming in late, I’ll be here all alone so can sit at my desk and browse the internet all day. Today looks to be a good day.

4-16-08. Sounds like a Bible Passage. (Real Life, WoW)

(Real Life)
2:00 PM in the afternoon. Do you know where your boss is? I do. He’s in Down Town Decatur. What is he doing? He’s eating lunch with the other employee and leaving me alone at the office. Again. This time it’s slightly different. I told him to bring me back some god damned food. It’s not so much that they get to get out of the office that annoys me, the job is a piece of cake. What annoys me is for lunch I eat hot pockets from the store, and they eat at a sit down restaurant. They do this twice a week. Not once have they ever brought anything back, or offered anything. Seriously, do they think I live off hot pockets when I am work? Do I need them to function? This is not Futurama, and I am not a Robot that lives off of Hot Pockets instead of booze.

(WoW)
I hate comparing gear. I hate it so much. Last night we were doing Black Temple again, 7th in DPS out of 15, so middle of the pack. My DPS suffered slightly because I was asked to watch one of the healers on a boss fight that was a good 20 yards away from me so I had to be ready at any second to rush to save them from a special attack and so could not concentrate on the fight.

Our raid leader pissed me the hell off. Looking at the WWS reports I took THE LEAST amount of damage in the fight, due to the combination of good reaction time and effective use of defensive skills. So what does he do? He calls me out on voice for not using a potion that increases my max health (NOTE: I had the HIGHEST max health out of every other DPS class there, warriors included. Does he seriously think I am going to die by not having 200 more health? )

I almost didn’t take it out of spite. I used one, and then did not use any more. I had brought 10, and because he chose to bring in a bunch of new people who sucked, we died a lot and I went through my stash. Then he yells at me for not coming prepared. How I known he was going to bring a raid of fucking tools, I would of made more. No, I assumed he was going to bring in COMPETENT people.

Each week I come closer and closer to saying fuck it, and going swords. I am sick of the issues I am having with daggers and it’s not worth it. What I am probably going to do, is go swords for PvE and daggers for PvP. Since I have to respec anyways for PvP I might as well do better in PvE. Am I a meter whore? Not really. Am I sick of being harassed because I play something that’s HARDER, TAKES MORE SKILL, and IS WORSE? Yes.

PS: Fuck you.

Four Days Later. ( Real Life, WoW )

Been a couple of days since I last posted, not really much to update.

(Real Life)
The Leech is still at the apartment, I gave him until today to get out. He has a job interview lined up and it seems ( according to him ) promising. I am going to give him a little bit more time to get his crap in order. Most of my friends think I am nuts, but he is doing some good cleaning at the house and taking care of the dog.

We got some new furniture, an entertainment center that is really really nice. The storage place that I work at, we're allowed to pick over peoples stuff if they do not want it and keep things we want before it gets trashed. I got two VERY nice metal wood and glass end tables, a coffee table that goes with it, some odds and ends, wine glasses, dishes, plates, silverware, etc. Also that entertainment center. All in all it was about $500 of really nice stuff to add to the apartment. With the bookshelves and pictures U have ( unicorns, lions, horses ) it looks very nice. I just need to figure out what to do with Leech, because he's getting expensive. He is also constantly stuck on my phone, CONSTANTLY, which still pisses me off. I think I am going to cut him off today.

(WoW)
We went back into Black Temple last night. We killed the first two bosses, we wiped on the first attempted on Naj'entus due to a fellow rogue being trigger happy. The boss puts up a wall of water around him as a shield, and you need to use one of his weapons to break it. When you do, everyone takes damage. Well the rogue hit the wrong button ( we have a macro to use the item ) and it blew up the raid at a bad time, killed about a third of us. Great job.

I did good on the DPS, being right where I should be, side by side with the other rogues. Not bad since my gear is a bit behind. Still debating if I want to get season 2 weapons, season 4 may come out soon. Realistically all I save by getting season 2 gear LATER is spending honor points instead of arena points. It seems my prefered playstyle is not indicitve of arenas ( mutilate ) and I REFUSE to play shadowstep. This may change if I get a decent mainhand weapon which is not a dagger, but I do not anticipate that any time soon.

Even if I do, I would need to practice with it a lot. I have no idea how to play a hemo rogue other than spamming my hemo button, shadowstepping to and from guys, and praying that cheatdeath saves my life. I destroy 99% of shadowstep rogues as mutilate, it just doesn't seem that effective to me. I'll have to look up some easy to get high DPS ( 95+) mainhand weapons. I would really love season 3 daggers, but the ratings get beat down aftet 1750 due to the same shit over and over. Powergaming point sellers, or druid mortal strike warrior combos.

Contempt, and Spiders. ( Wow, Real Life )

(WoW)
So I was running Heroic Magisters Terrace yesterday ( Know as Mr T for some reason, I don't know where the 'r' comes from, and I Pity The Fool that can tell me ) and the item I want drops. The feral druid and I both roll need on it, and I won, I was so pleased I did not even check to see how close the rolls were. What dropped? This.

Shard of Contempt

It's an awesome little trinket, and it replaces a trinket that I have had since I was level 62. It seems to proc pretty constantly, I'd say about once a minute if not slightly more. This item is amazingly ilevel effecient as both the proc rate and the static bonus are very nice.


(Real Life)
So I am here at work today, bullshitting with a co worker from another store who is here to fill in for a few hours for the assistant manager to go to the wedding he had plans for, when he stops talking. "Dude, there's a huge f'ing spider on your shoulder." So I think the guy is full of shit, until he gets a piece of paper and starts swatting at me. The spider made its way down my back and into my pants pocket. The thing was about the size of a penny, and I feel bad for it because it didn't need to die. ( The beating he gave it killed it. ) I don't like spiders any more than anyone else, and I am not like them more than anyone else, but I realize they play an important role in life and I acknowledge their right to live. It's death was far from painless, and I am saddened in my role at its death.

Copy and Paste. Computers, The Lion King, and Swords. ( Wow, Real Life )

Random Talking, Activate.

(Real Life)
So I am at work alone again, dude I was supposed to work with left early due to hours, he's going to Savannah for a wedding. He always seems to go to weddings, about one a month. Probably just some sluts getting knocked up and getting married so the kid is not a bastard. Sorry folks, if you're concieved before marriage you're a bastard, regards of the state of the relationship when you're born.

I am working on this crappy old computer for my boss, it's probably a good eight years old. I reformatted it, added some OS and drivers, etc. He's giving it to someone whose computer shit the bed. It's fine for non online work, but once you want to go online you have a problem. It has an internet connection, a dial up cable. I mean, seriously? I haven't used dial up in close to six years. I guess if you have nothing then something is better.

I had this weird dream last night, the only parts I can remember are something along the lines of The Lion King characters. I was watching what was going on from outside of it, but I was also one of the characters. I had this lioness I was with, and this other lion was trying to get with her. I had woo'd and won her, he needed to back the f off. Well the lioness and I had some cubs, and then it flashed forward in time and I had the cubs but the other dude had her and some cubs of his own with her. I was like "Wtf?". Then she tells me something like "You stopped wooing, he didn't." Sometimes wooing is not worth it.

Never wedding, ever wooing,
Still a lovelorn heart pursuing,
Read you not the wrong you're doing
In my cheek's pale hue?
All my life with sorrow strewing;
Wed or cease to woo.
-Thomas Campbell



(WoW)
So I read the WoW forums today for my guild and they are talking about group make ups. Remember the min maxing post I did earlier? Where I prefer some style and roleplay so stick with my pointy daggers and these button jerkers go with swords? All his formations had sword rogues. Why do I not get any fucking love from these people? Why do I even bother? At this point in the game I need spend some special in game money to get some items needed for a boss. If I did not spend them on that, I could spend them on other things I would want and like. So my question is, why the hell should I spend the items on something to use when I get into raids when I never get into raids? Fuckers.

Mental Cobwebs. ( Real Life )

It's Thursday morning, I got to cheese into work later than usual by doing some marketing. I went to nearby apartment complexes and dropped off some business cards, referal cards, and some free month storage flyers. All in a great way to get paid for walking close to where I live, and since it was on the way and I got to go in late, all in all it was a win.

Alone at work at the moment so I decided to toss down some things to clear my mental cobwebs. The assistant manager went to get some food, he's always going to "business meetings" and things in the afternoon which I think is code for "stuffing my face". I am stuck not being able to do that at the moment because of a lack of a car. Hope to have this remedied soon.

The Leech strikes again. I woke up this morning to find all my stored text messages deleted and replaced with beggings and pleadings sent to people from my phone. Every time I feel the slightest sympathy towards him he fucks it up. I am able to recieve text messages but not send them, I never needed to send them so I never got the service. Which means I either ended up getting charged per message he sent or none of the messages he sent got sent.

Boss is back, need to go for the moment.

And..

We’re back.

Where was I… (Reads over what he wrote) Oh yes.

So I went to MetroPCS’ website trying to find any information about whether or not they got sent, if I got charged. Nothing on it. So we’ll have to wait and see.

On a happier note, my girlfiancee and I are going the Ren Fest this month. The assistant manager where I work got some free tickets for going to a meeting where he got free food and listening to people to tell him how to do his job. I’d of gone but I always get the short end of the stick and am stuck in the office. Oh well, atleast this time I actually got something out of it.

And no, I am not emo. I bet you’re one of those people who tell perfectly calm people to chill. I hate people like that.

WoW Update. ( WoW.. Duh )

I play on a realm called Kargath. My character is a tiny gnome rogue, I stab things, they keel over and die. It's fun to be good and powerful and small.

That's sort of like our guild. We're a crew of about 50-60 people, some play together, some are just there because they are friends and/or family of those that play together. Today we took out second poke into The Black Temple, "the" hardest instance currently in the game.

On day 1, we killed the first boss Na'jentus on three attempts. No loot for me. It's an easy straight forward fight except that every minute he turns invincible and heals, and you need to toss one of his own tossed spines back at him to destroy it during this time. Doing so blasts everyone for 8500 damage, so its heal intensive. Healer gear check.

The second night, tonight, we went in to fight Supremus again. He's a giant blue lava elemental ( fire elementals are made of fire, lava elementals are more solid, think of them like molten boulders stuck together. ) Visual Aid. Yes the quality sucks. Bite me.


All in all, he's pretty easy. Our guild motto is "Tank stuff, kill stuff, don't suck."

Four attempts we had Surpremus loot. I got nothing. Images to come.

Tempted to spend me 4k arena points on some season 2 and season 3 stuff which are bare upgrades... will start buying upgrades when I meet the arena point cap of 5,000 points I think. Highest team I ever had was 1750, had it for about an hour until some point selling mother fuckers beat us down to 1600. Point Sellers are people who power rank other people by teaming up with them when their rating is massively higher. It's like paying a black belt to win a tournament for you against people who have been doing karate for a week. Needless to say, we got ass fucked. Not the good ass fucked either. The non lube, bleeding, flesh peeling and screaming ass fucked.

Day 1 Point 8. Little over an hour left. ( WoW, Real Life )

(WoW)

Still at work alone, but I get to leave here in about an hour. Tonight when I get home I get to prep myself for the new Sunwell instance in WoW. That is if I am even chosen. It's getting to the point where I am tired of being chosen, because I only ever get chosen to go on shit that I do not need. Example: Tonight, we're probably going to spend all night dying to the trash and the first boss, and not get shit out of it. I am below geared compared to the other min maxers who usually get chosen over me, so I get to go on the dumb shit and not on the shit that would get me better gear to attempt to catch up. What a crock.

Back in one second. Checking out PhP to see if I am even going. Yup. Pretty worthless for me to go, so I was chosen. Lovely. Don't you love how life works?

(Real Life)
I need to go to the damn store before I go home but I doubt I'll have time, and I bet The Leech ( From now on the person staying with me shall be known as this ) has eaten the majority of the stuff I wanted to eat for dinner. He cannot leave the house because we do not have an extra key to give him, and he cannot contact anyone while I am out of the house. This is again because he does not have a working cellphone so wants to suck minutes off mine.

His sister was killed or died or something less than a week ago, my girlfriend knew and I didn't. Why didn't he tell me? Quote "Not like he'll care." He's right, I don't. Yes, it sucks. Yes, I am sorry for this loss. That does not change anything. He is still gone on the 10th, I want my goddamned life back without having everything I buy munched and things I own destroyed ( see my girlfriends computer with OVER 200 FUCKING VIRUSES ON IT ) as an example of what I mean by that comment.

I need to get off my ass and get my license again. No, you did not misread that. I am almost 28 and do not have my license. Why? I had a nervous breakdown when I was 23 and turned agoraphobic (Agoraphobia) so could not leave my apartment. This cost me my job, as well as most of my money and my sanity. I still have no fully recovered, and as part my license expired and my new phobia of driving kept me from getting it back. Lately I've had the urge to start driving again, and I need to get it for work so I don't come off as a total loser in life.

Side track --> Girlfriend.
We're semi engaged. I have her a promise ring about a year ago. I want to stop being a total fucking nutcase before I make it official. She also needs to get her finances a bit more in order. She has a full time job, we just need to work on her money management and spending habits. ( Mental note, talk to her about it tonight. ) As well as I want to make sure I can drive before we get married. It's just something I need to do, I do not feel like a true responsible adult when I cannot even drive a car.

We're back <-- kcart ediS

Done for the moment, I need to start getting ready for closing at work.

This picture made me laugh.

Day 1. Let the venting begin.

It’s another day at work, alone. Alone you may ask? Let me explain. I work at a storage facility in Decatur Georgia. It’s oh, about 5-10 minutes outside of Atlanta. Yes, Atlanta, not “ATL” I am not some loser rapper or hip hopper thus I do not feel the need to acronym it as thought it means something. No one ever says “I am from ‘N’ ‘Y’.” They say New York. “I am from ‘P’ ‘A’.” It’s Pennsylvania. Anyways, I digress..

I am here alone, because again the other person I am supposed to work with is over hours due to crappy scheduling. Our boss is on vacation ( his 80+ year old mom is down here visiting him and he’s a mamma’s boy ) so he took the week off. This made the assistant manager go over hours, though I fail to see how. He works two days for 12 hours, that’s 24 hours out of 40. That leaves 16 hours left for 3 days. That’s just over 5 hours a day. He gets here at 8, so in theory he should leave at 2 each day. Yet he leaves at about 10. Why? He does lots of marketing and things that he “gets paid for even when he is not at work.” Such crap.

I play Word of Warcraft. I have for a few years now, sometimes it’s just a time sink, sometimes I enjoy. Lately, I’ve been enjoying it less. People in it are starting to piss me off. I prefer to play my character a certain way, it fits my image of my character. The problem is the way I play is not a min maxer build. ( From Wikipedia “Min-maxing is the practice of playing role playing game for the intent of creating the "best" character by means of minimizing undesired or unimportant traits and maximizing desired ones. This is usually accomplished by improving one specific trait or ability by sacrificing ability in all other fields.”) This also refers to stats that are randomly generated, and you keep resetting the game when you level up to get the best stats each and every level. See “powergaming”.

Basically because I have a view of my character, a style, roleplay, whatever you want to call it, I refuse to do certain things with my character. This include the use and disuse of certain weapons. Due to my choices, and me not min maxing, I am being left out of groups and runs that I would otherwise be in. Since I have played with these people for a long time, and now I am starting to be left out, it’s pissing me off. I am debating sacrificing myself for the sake of acceptance and allowance into things for the game. At that point, I might as well quit. If I cannot be me, and do what I want to, I won’t do any of it.

My girlfriend recently got into World of Warcraft ( refered to as WoW from here on ) and she is started to play it a lot. She is okay at it, typical newb, but she just started playing so she IS new. I try to help her but I need to find the right amount of “thanks for helping me” so it doesn’t turn into the “now you’re starting to annoy me”. So far I am bad at knowing where the line is drawn.

We started out playing together, but I got sick of the elf area where we were playing. I wanted to move on, but she and I started playing at odd times so we couldn’t move on easily together. She is having computer problems ( part of which is caused by someone we are letting stay with us jerking off to porn on it and getting viruses on it. More on this later. ) which is preventing us from playing together at all. I am looking for something else to occupy my time. Be it a game, activity, etc, but at the moment I am just mentally drowning and need a release. Maybe this is it.

So this guy that is staying with us. He’s 20, black ( not that that matters ) and got kicked out of his parents house. Why he is still living with his parents at 20, I have no idea. It was my girlfriend’s idea for him to stay with us, she is a kind person, I was not happy but allowed it because I know the guy.

Over a year ago I used to work at this pet shop, it was a pain in the ass and the company sucked, we went through new staff on a monthly basis. Anyways, this person worked there with me, I was his boss and he did a good enough job at first but then slacked off and was fired.

So now he’s staying with me. He keeps doing things which piss me off to no end. His phone got turned off so he uses mine, using my minutes, I “constantly” find him on my phone without permission even though I stated he HAS TO ASK to use my fucking phone. I gave him a week to get out. The week ends on 4/10. I am going to kick him out sooner if he doesn’t stop eating all my shit I want to eat and using up my minutes. He doesn’t even have money for food of his own. Which is fine, I can spare him some food, but what pisses me off is when I go to eat something specific and it’s gone EVEN THOUGH I HID IT. If not for my girlfriend, he’d of been on the street the second day.