Nothing Important. ( Real Life, WoW )

( Real Life )

Just another day in the life of a serial killer.

Kidding.

It's not just another day.

Passing time at work, trying to keep busy, but I am basically here alone so most of the work I need to do I cannot do because it involves me leaving the office, which I cannot.

My girlfriend said that we need to talk, and that she is not happy and that it may result in her leaving me. When I gave her the time/option to talk she was busy playing WoW to talk to me. We haven't talked since but she has been acting happier lately so things may have resolve itself, but I doubt it. I wish I knew where we stand. I'll have to ask here tonight when we go to bed.

The people at work are getting annoying. Most of the days I am at work alone due to various reasons, and that prevents me from doing much that requires me to leave the office. Then they harass me for being on the internet a lot. I'm sorry, what is exactly you expect me to do for eight hours when I cannot leave the office? Stare at the blank screen of a computer?

The caterpillar is only there because it amused me, and I need amusement lately. I got up the other morning and our cockspaniel had ransacked the garbage in the living room and I beat her ass for it. I am getting so frustrated. The dog refuses to eat its own food, stares at me when I eat, she is constantly scrounging for food but won't eat her own. All of it is my fault because I give her food now and then, but in the house I grew up we had dogs that ate their food and people food. Zelda, the cocker, refuses to eat hers now.

( WoW )

So we're 7/9 in Black Temple now, we took down RoS [ Sad, Glad, and Mad ] and Mother Shaz. RoS is easily on farm now, taking as little as two attempts to get her/him/it down. I am one of the two kickers, and I seriously suggest people get the addon Deaden Blocker for kicking. It does exactly what it says it does. It prevents you, the rogue/kicker/counter from seeing the caster bar for "Deaden". What this means is when it's your turn to kick, all you need to do is kick the casting bar without worrying if its the right one.

Mother Shaz is a shadow resist gear check, and the mats are obtained from doing Black Temple and Hyjal. It comes off as a "you must have raided this much to beat this boss" effect. All in all, she is simple with the gear, impossible ( or close to ) without it. It took us four attempts. Easy Tier 6 shoulders. Not for me. Fuck you druids.

This Sunday is primarily dedicated to the Illidari Council which is our current progression and stop cap. Let's see how we do.

Time Flies. ( Real Life )

I can't believe it's been a month since I have posted anything. That's what happens when your life is the same cycle day in, day out. I cannot believe I have been at my current job for about eight months now, it does not feel "anywhere" near that long.

My dad is getting a personal defibrillator put in his chest in a few days. It's a relatively small surgical endeavor, it requires tiny incisions and hooking some wires to his heart. Basically, if his heart starts to be at an odd pattern it shocks it back into a steady beat. It's the little brother of the pace maker.

My girlfriend is severely addicted to WoW now, to the point where she stays up literally all night, coming to bed at 7am sometimes, just playing. She is on a RP server, and I love/trust her, but my jealous nature sometimes makes me wonder if things are being done which I would not like to know about. I doubt it, but I've got a jealous/distrustful side to me. I wonder if she felt this way when I was up all night in the past?

Mom's birthday is coming up soon, or rather, it would if she had not passed away years ago. I don't like to think about it, even now it brings me to tears to remember back then.

My mom had MS for about 8-10 years before she passed. For a while my family was separated, it was my two sisters and myself staying in an apartment. For legal reasons we could not live with Dad, thank you Jessica. I'd come home from school now and then to find mom on the floor paralyzed from her MS, and after that I started skipping school to take care of her. Several months after that I was sent to a boy's home for skipping school. Funny, I do something to prevent my mom from getting severely hurt while alone and I get penalized by the state, the same state that made us move out from Dad's house where mom was safe.

She went downhill over the years, from walking normally to needing Canadian canes ( forearm crutches, braced at the wrist not armpit ) to being wheel chair able to being bed ridden. She died when I wasn't there, I spent years at home until I was 20 because I felt like the moment I moved out mom was die. Three months after I moved out of state to work my new job, she died.

It's been years, I forget how many, six or seven, and I miss her all the same. Her life sucked, she was in a foster home, was adopted, her family members commit suicide and then she was diagnosed with MS. All I can hope is that she was happier than I think she was.

I love you mom, and I miss you.

Hypocrisy, and Agony. ( Real Life, WoW )

( Real Life )
So, it's 5pm and I am at work. Why am I at work alone? Well, the asssistant manager is scheduled to leave at 5pm so he left, leaving me with the manager. The manager who has extra hours this week due to some meetings ( the same meetings I am going to have on Friday ) decides to leave early. He apologized to me. I told him not to worry about it, and don't be suprised when I leave early on Saturday.

Well THAT pissed him off, and he went on a rant about how I am scheduled until 7, and just because "he" leaves early on a day of the week does not mean "I" can leave early on a day in that same week. This from the person who gets pissy when I groan when he asks me to go clean up a mess that was made. After I've been at work for a week straight and he just got off a two week vacation, he has the balls to ask me to do extra work above and beyond? God damn sometimes I want to beat the hell out of him.

( WoW )
So, I got a new dagger for my rogue last night. Boundless Agony. It's pretty nice even without its stats, and it cost me about a weeks worth of DKP which a LOT cheaper than using arena points or Badges of Justice to buy one. I already tossed a mongoose enchant on it, and I get to try it out tonight on Archimonde. Hoping for the tier 6 helm tonight, but I have a lot of competition and we've been having trouble killing old Archimonde lately. Out of four nights dedicated to him, we've gotten him two of those four nights, depends on our class make up. Here's hoping.

Lady luck be kind.

Random.

Cloverfield. ( Real Life ) *SPOILER ALERT*

Two words.

IT SUCKED.

I rented the movie last night and watched it while cuddling someone sexy on my futon for an hour and a half, and the movie sucked. I describe it as Blair Witch meets Godzilla. I am used to some sort of description of the events, but the entire thing came off as a documentary. Which I understand is the plot of the movie, but I expected a better ending than just the people with the camera getting blown up when they nuked the monster. Not to mention, the monster' source, description, reasoning, etc is never told/shown. Hell they never even tell you if they successfuly drive it off or kill it.

Yes, it had good special effects, but it was boring. It had no plot to speak of, it was just people running around with a camera watching the monster through slight glances and glimpses while finally giving a semi decent shot of it. It was just very, very, unfulfilling.

The Cycle of Life. ( Real Life )

I woke up the other morning, and went about my morning. I have some pets, and it took me about an hour of looking at things online, checking my WoW auctions, and e-mail before I got to them. When I got to them, I found one of my guinea pigs had died. She had not been sick, she had not been acting weird. They had no water in their bottle and it was a semi hot night, about 78° or so, it's quite possible she succumbed to the heat but I really doubt it, she was fine on hotter nights. I feel a bit guilty, and sad.

It took me a day to get the time to bury here, and when I my girlfriend and I went out back behind our apartment, found a nice grassy patch and buried her. Sadly I am quite good and accustomed to burying animals, I used to bury a cat every six months or so when I was growing up mainly because we lived on a highway and had a 'lot' of cats.

I keep almost finding myself crying over her death, but it doesn't quite come. One of these days I am going to need to let it come or I am going to have another emotional breakdown that kept me barricaded in my apartment for months at a time when I lived in Virginia.

I'm sorry Lefty.

Saturaine, and Moding ( Real Life, WoW )

( Real Life )
Why do I always get migraines on Saturday morning? The last three weeks in a row I have woken up with killer poundings in my skull, that slowly get worse throughout the day. I tell myself they aren’t that bad but roughly about noon, after being awake for about three hours, they turn into monsters that have me taking pain killers for the second half of the day. There seems to be no rhyme or reason to them. It’s not like I am going out drinking every Friday, nor do I stay later on Fridays. It’s just one of those things. One of those annoying, pain in my ass, things.

(WoW)
I’ve been leveling a shaman on a role play server. My fiancée bought WoW a few months ago after himming and hawing over it, and we rolled new toons on Moonguard together. We started as alliance, got to mid level teens before I got sick of playing the toon. I went back to my Kargath characters while she rolled a Blood Elf Warlock and went to the dark side, Horde. A few weeks later I joined her by making Mamo Rajis, current a level 46 enhancement shaman. I am leveling faster than most people in the guild but that’s because most people in the guild roleplay “in person” with their characters. Meaning their characters are actually in the same area as each other, rather than whispers or guild chat. This type of roleplay I would prefer to do with how we currently do it.

Right now when I log in, people greet me in guild and in character, even though I haven’t typed an entrance. This goes back to people in AOL role play greeting or reacting to you when you screen name enters a room when you haven’t even entered yet. I snapped at a few people do doing that, because it FORCES me to either A) Ignore them. B) Roleplay entering even if I didn’t want to enter. This is part of the reason I just started ignoring guild chat all together.

I am trying to find some good weapons for him, and I need to make some decisions about his history. At the moment I am treating him as an Atai’li troll. While mostly only found in the Sunken Temple, they are primarily worshippers of the Blood God Hakkar who currently exists in Zul’Gurub. I need to do some checking to see what the name of the trolls that exist in ZG are, I hope they are not “Zul’Gurub Mob Name Here” because that doesn’t really help me.

Horny Friday. ( Real Life )

I know it’s been a while since I have blogged. In more meanings than one. I was at work today, and with the time of year there are a lot of young college students moving in to the storage places to store their items for the three months they are going home for the end of the semester. Some of them are hot. I mean, damn hot. Some are cute, some are worth going to jail for. Technically, none of them are jail bait in Georgia which has a sixteen year old policy. Sometimes I wish I had been more of a horndog when I was growing up. As it stands now, I am on a monogamous (sp?) relationship with my fiancée, we’ve been together off and on for close to seven years. It’s just that seeing all these young teenie boppers gets me a.. raise. That’s a good way to put it, and I wish I had been with some of the cute young things of my time.

I love my fiancée, I do. I just need to accept there are a few things in my life that aren’t going to happen, and banging the #$%^ out of a sexy 80 pound 18 year old college student is one of them. Sometimes, life sucks. Sometimes you get what need, but not what you want. I think that's how my life turned out. I rather have 95% of what I need, than 100% of what I want. A good portion of what I need and want overlap with my life, and for that I am happy.

For Sharvan.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
across Northrend's bright and shining snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
on Westfall's fields of golden grain.
I am in the morning hush,
of Stranglethorn's jungle, green and lush.
I am in the drums loud and grand,
the thunderous hooves across Nagrand.
I am the stars warmly gleaming,
over Darnassus softly dreaming.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

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I did not know her personally, and I know nothing more about her than what I saw on her armory. Yet knowledge of her passing brings such sadness in me that I have been weeping for the last hour. I don't know when BRK is holding a running of the bulls, but I won't miss it now.

Want To Buy [Monday] ( Real Life )

So it’s Saturday, and I am at work. Pulling a double because the boss is out of town. One of the employees stop in long enough for me to run and get some lunch, and I buy pre cooked barbeque chicken. I didn’t realize it was an entire chicken, I thought it was assorted bits. I feel weird eating food that looks like it did when it was alive. It looks exactly like a plucked, decapitated cooked chicken. So, I am eating it.

I cracked one of my teeth I recently had a root canal on, fractured a portion of the tooth off.. and swallowed it, without knowing. I cannot express how disgusted I am that I swallowed it. I want to go vomit it up. I have no idea why I am having this reaction, but it makes me retch just thinking about it.

The reason I Want to Buy [Monday] is because this Monday I am seeing my dentist for a cleaning, and a crown for three teeth. If that had happened a week ago, as intended, I wouldn’t of just swallowed a piece of my tooth.

Ugh.